No More

No more half way deals

It's all or nothing.

I want something real

I am tired of the games

If u wanna play

then just go away

I have a life to live

chose to be in it or out of it

there is no on the line anymore

This will be a life of happiness

not sorrow and regret

Eighteen

Eighteen...I can't believe the day is here.

For years and year I have wished for this day to come..Now I wish time would go back.

It is time to stand up and backup all the words I have talked for years.

I don't know were I am going

I don't know what I will do

I have no clue who will be there

All I know is I have an Idea of it all

My old life is gone and my new life begins.

This time it is up to me how it goes...

Two More Months

Two more months till graduation. So close to what I have wanted for years. Yet so far. I have worked for years and focused on the future for so long. Now that it will finally be here in just a few months i'm so nervous, and so excited. I was thinking of dropping out for a while because I just didn't want to do it anymore. I wanted away from the high school crap. I just hated life and wanted to be were I was happy and with the one I was happy with. I miss my home so much. I miss him even more. I hate I can't be there for him. I hate how I can't visit him at all, But I know it has to be done. If I want a future there I need to stick it out here. I am so happy I did not drop not now. Everyone says I will miss school and all the "no responsibility" but I have enough of tho's already and no freedom. I can not wait to be my own person in charge of my own life. I just hope these plans work out one way or another. With as little depression as possible...